Todays Quote of the day

From one of my favorite writers, CS Lewis. Has anyone seen that show btw?
Jenn



Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art... It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.



C. S. Lewis

How familiar is this scenario? :)

I was at an audition yesterday, one of those auditions where you walk into the room and your heart sinks. There are what looks to be a million people waiting to be seen, and they are all drop dead gorgeous. You started the day feeling pretty good about yourself: your hair is cooperating, you have your favorite outfit on, you found the place with no problem. You think to yourself, "this is gonna be a breeze, I'll be in an out in no time".

NOT! The wait time is at least 45 minutes, and during that time you do everything you can to distract yourself so that you're not focusing on all of the competition...you read, you listen to your ipod, get some water, get some more water...until finally, mercifully, they call your name. :)

It wasnt all bad though, which is why I chose to blog about it. The good thing was that at this audition, I ran into an old friend of mine from college. I actually hadnt even recognized her, she called out to me. I couldnt beleive it was her. She looked the same, but different. (I know, that makes no sense, but thats the best way I can describe it). So we spent some time just catching  up, seeing what we each had been up to in the past few years, sharing what we knew about other friends whereabouts. So many of them have dropped out of the business and chose to get married and start families...

The thing about these moments, moments  when you run into people from your past, is that they somehow make you feel less like a number. They are a reminder of who I am, what I do, and where I come from. They make me feel connected and grounded, like I am a part of something. Even after a lot of time has passed. Not just a random person walking aimlessly thru life.They also remind me that I am not alone in this journey, that they are out there pounding the pavement, just like I am.

I met another actress  friend for lunch the other day too, and I remember feeling the same way. That feeling of support and community. I felt uplifted and inspired after my meeting with her. 

Hope you guys have a chance to meet up with some old friends and get that same affirmation, and maybe give it to someone else. Makes a great gift. :)

I'm off to go buy a new phone- I lost mine last nite, which really sucks because it means Ive lost all of my contacts phone numbers... sigh...

Cheers!!!

Jenn

Todays Quote of the day

‘Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.’ ~Victor Frankl

Ten Things Thursday- Belated

Another  late nite at The River...better late than never....

Here you go, and hoping that this inspires you to reflect on this past year and all of your accomplishemnts and successes. Feel free to share yours here too. We can tend to be so hard on ourselves, its helpful to look back and gives ourselves a little pat on the back for all that we have done this year.

Ten Things I Accomplished this Year that Im Really Happy About:

1) Trip to PR to see my family, including my two nieces.
2) Signed with a legit agent ( the one I really wanted and had my heart set on for so long.)
3) Booked two commercials
4) Performed in four shows
5) Major progress on my film trailer
6) Major progress on my physical goals
7) New jobs that support me and allow me to pursue my artistic goals.
8) Increased Financial Solvency
9) Continued service to my community thru church involvement, community service, and other activities.
10) Continued taking  classes to hone my craft and stay on top of my game.
***Bonus***- Learned to play a sport (football) and be part of a team! :)

Today a good friend of mine really hurt my feelings and made me want to cry. :(  Argh!!  The funny thing is that I dont even think he knows he hurt me. He just said something w/out really thinking it thru first.
I know that in my post last week one of the things I said I want to get better at is being less sensitive, so I guess here is my first opportunity to practice that. Its also an opportunity for me to practice the way I speak to my friends so that I dont make them feel this way. So here's to brushing it off and keeping the flow going. :)

I continue to work hard at my trailer. Its a challenge to work consistently on it while at the same time juggling other obligations like work, moves, family/friends, and life in general. One of the things I realized that was holding me back was that since I used a voiceover, I was sort of becoming a slave to it, trying to match images to what the words of the voice over were saying. So we've begun to mute out the voiceover and focus only on image. I'm also finding that every session, I get a new idea and want to change everything!! :)

I remember being in the editing room with LD when we working on Precious. It was soo tedious. I am trying to apply his technique with my project. He focused on every possible detail. He didnt care how long it took, how many sessions we had to do. He didnt stop until it was EXACTLY what he wanted. And so it must be...

I've waited on some famous people at work in the past few weeks, which is always exciting. I try not to "sweat" famous people too much, because at the end of the day, they are just people, like you and I. I learned this during my time LD. You spend enough time with all of these famous people and you begin to see that they are not quite the gods we can sometimes make them out to be. Even still, though, its a little hard to wait on these stars and not have your vocie get a little shaky when you are telling them what the specials of the day are. :)

I saw Due Date last week, silly movie but funny. Check it out if you are feeling the stress of the holidays and need to take a breather.

O- and beginning today, I will end each blog entry with a quote. A little food for thought as you go thru your day:

"If nothing changes, nothing changes".

Have a great day and stay warm.

Jenn

Ten Things Thursday

Ten Things I Want to Get Better at:

1) Saving Money
2) Working out (get stronger and healthier)
3) Being more Patient
4) Be more Forgiving
5) Cooking
6) Being Kinder to myself (less critical)
7) Trusting in God as my source (not money, career, relatinoships, etc)
8) Organizing better
9) Time Management
10) Being less sensitive

So, I survived the holiday. An entire week with my mother here and NO incidents. I want a lollipop. Our visits continue to consist mostly of news from Divorcelandia, but there are signs of growth. Step by step. And a week of insulin  shots and "shooting pains" in the nite have got me back on the eating right wagon. That will not be me.

Have an audition today, then gym, and a bunch of errands to run. I have an editng session for the trailer on Saturday (hopefully the last) and need to prep for that. Hoping to have something to send out by the time the holidays are here.

Cant believe its freaking December already!! Hope you all have a great day, despite the rain.

Jenn